It seems incomprehensible to think that God does not exist; even though God is a mystery. The question is, "how does God reveal herself / himself?" D.H. Lawrence's Creed presents his belief. It is:

That I am I.
That my soul is a dark forest.
That my known self will never be more than a little clearing in the forest.
That gods, strange gods, come forth from the forest into the clearing of my known self, and then go back.
That I must have the courage to let them come and go.
That I will never let mankind put anything over me, but that I will try always to recognize and submit to the gods in me and the gods in other men and women.

We need to cherish the glimpses we receive as strange gods come and go.

Chuck